At the end of our first year struggling with cancer (2008), I wrote this poem, Looking back, it certainly summarized the wonderful life we had together — even after a year fighting this cancer. We now had been married for 27 years.
I wrote a poem for Sabine on this anniversary as I have done throughout the years. This was a scary year for both of us, we didn’t know how many more years we would have together. The current mortality data concerning multiple myeloma wasn’t very hopeful. It gave us about a maximum of two years — collaboratively, with love and being in an excellent cancer care center, we made it for 12 more!
(The first blog was posted earlier that year as a way to keep our extended group of family and close friends informed about Sabine’s illness and for me to process the almost overwhelming feelings I was experiencing. You can begin reading our journey HERE.)
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i often
think of our life together
like a immense photo album
but the early photos
are not
black and white
they are all techni-colored
animated
vibrating radiant
they flash and dash
like a documentary collage
through my mind
and now
as we age
the expectant colors slightly fade
i look for them
wanting them again
the flashing dancing radiance
instead i find myself
walking with you
along a path
it seems like late fall
the summer colors are gone
but instead
something is new again
peaceful and calm
we are filled with deeply
rich tones
tones of an old sepia print
and we look at each other
knowingly
and fearlessly.
[Dec 29, 2008]
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